Spinning

“My reality is declining.

I’m lost in translation

between the world with you

and its bland alternate without.”

 

I am sad and heartbroken

because it turns out you did not love me.

I am sad and heartbroken,

because I am alone here, so lonely.

I am sad and heartbroken,

because my One won’t come and hold me.

 

I smile but my face is just imitating the grimace.

I laugh but my heart won’t echo the sounds I create .

I talk but my words don’t mean anything anymore .

I write but there is no story that comes but you and I.

 

My thoughts are haunted.

My body is screaming.

My mind is losing.

My grip has faded.

My head is spinning.

My lips are trembling.

My breath is breaking.

My eyes are crying.

 

My reality is declining.

I’m lost in translation

between the world with you

and its bland alternate without you.

 

My future is a blank page.

I don’t know how to start

typing on its ledge.

There is just an I

with no edge.

 

I wish I could

go back in time,

but that wouldn’t change.

So I’d speed up ahead,

til my heart wouldn’t hurt

so bad anymore.

I am sad and heartbroken,

because it turns out you did not love me.

© Hailie


 

Good evening my talented friends,

I hope you are having a fantastic day!

I have yet another musical creation to share with you. This is an improvised session I recorded on the 2nd of September. It is growing on me. I still have to work on it and turn it into a proper song. Still, I am so eager to share it with you that I don’t feel like waiting for me to practice another month or so, before I can come up with a more advanced version. So I decided I would share both, the spontaneous improvisation and the final version later on, when it is done.

I can’t wait to hear your first impressions.

Much love,

© Hailie


Featured Image: Spinning Skies and Dark Waters. Image captured in Thonon-Les-Bains on September 11th, 2017. iPhone 5S, HDR settings.

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19 Comments Add yours

  1. Beautiful, love your voice

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    1. Thank you so much for your appreciation, M. 😊 I am delighted you do!

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      1. Don’t mention it, it is such a pleasure. How are you doing?

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        1. I am doing great, thank you, and you? It is September so Summer break is over and I am back to teaching full time. Therefore I have a lot less time to write, and read. I try to sneak in a moment here and there 🙂

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          1. Oh I see. I hope everything continues going great for you. You deserve that and so much more. Stay awesome.

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  2. Mel Gutiér says:

    The poem is beautiful. Love!

    Will listen to your song later. 😉

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    1. Thank you, Mel! These words are also the lyrics to the song 🙂

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  3. ivors20 says:

    Lovely Hailie, you have a beautiful voice, although I think you struggled with being distinctive with your words. Would be nice if you could do like in a studio, and sing your words separately on top of your acoustic music.

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    1. Thank you, I.! Thanks for the constructive feedback! I am aware the vocals need some work ^^ it was an improv session. I tried to instill a Tim Burton Like mood in the song so I fell into the trap of not enunciating enough on purpose.
      I tried to give it an eerie atmosphere. I will take your wise advice into account and make sure I enunciate more when I next record it.

      I would love to record everything in a studio but I don’t know anyone in the singing industry ^^, I wouldn’t know where to start.

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      1. ivors20 says:

        Sorry I’ve not got back to you, I’m glad you understood what I was trying to say. I kow, you need to find a friend with studio facilities. Can you do a search of local music/folf clubs, might give you somewhere to start.

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        1. Of course I understood 🙂 I will try and inquire, although I doubt there is anything/anyone in the area…

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          1. Thank you for your kind support 💕 I will start trying and keep believing in what I do.

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  4. Diana says:

    Very special to be following the lyrics as you sing along. It’s as if I am reading your Soul’s Diary at your side, peering inquisitively over your shoulder. Although it takes courage to share a self confessed early version, the abundance of raw feeling expressed forges connection to the listener. And this listener is saying… “so beautiful.” x

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    1. Haha ^^ I thought it would feel like that. Thanks for your wonderful insight. I am delighted you enjoyed it despite the inherent flaws unavoidable in a first draft. I decided I don’t want to share only polish stuff. There is so much beauty and so much to learn in imperfection, when it comes to performing, like you said you can feel my emotions so strongly. Also, I like the idea of sharing the thought process as well and sort of the “making of”, because it really is what this is. Sooooo stoked you liked it!! 💕

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      1. Diana says:

        I so do! And yes, it affords rare insight into the creative process that makes the journey a fascinating one.
        Inherent flaws? At this point your work is so real and natural … like a lover’s hoarse voice first thing in the morning. Perfection and polish can lose much passion along the way. I’m entranced ❤️

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        1. ❤️ aw!!! Thank you that is how I feel about it when I listen to it as well. There is something intoxicating about this draft. The spontaneity, the connection to my heart. I thought no matter how much I worked on it I will never be able to recreate that – which is another reason why I decided to share it.
          Ps: you got mail 😉

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          1. Diana says:

            😊 Happy!
            Ps: I 💕 your ^^ thinking and ever fresh creative endeavours. Wow! Have a t’rrific day!

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          2. Thanks lovely! Nighty night to you! 💕

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