There is this constant ache
Tugging at his chest,
A weight he just can’t shake.
He feels completely invisible to her.
She holds him in her palm,
And yet she makes him feel like
She doesn’t see him.
If he existed through her eyes only,
He would have no soul.
He would be a table or chair,
Maybe a pretty painting,
But not a human being.
His heart was hoping to feel hers,
But hers won’t open.
He sees no door carving itself in her walls
To welcome his presence.
She is there physically,
Just enough not to lose him momentarily,
But not enough to keep him indefinitely.
He is walking in limbo,
Stuck between two worlds,
One with her in it,
The other one without.
He has been hoping for a sign
Of her love to show him the way
And welcome her in,
But her heart it filled with doubts.
That leaves no place for him.
Her space is overcrowded.
There is no room for him to fit in,
So he has to go.
New Year’s decided so.
Featured image: Layers of tree shadows lying over water covered, fallen leaves. Captured with an iPhone X, HDR setting, on December 29th, 2018, in Gap, France.